Friday night and i have been off work all week. At this present moment in time I am sooo bored even though i could quite easily go and find something, I am feeling far too restless to do so.
Why, I have no idea and to be honest it has been a long time since i have felt this bored..... I can usually easily find something to do to pass the hours, but it's like my mind is telling me not to find something to do....it wants me to be bored, distracting me from what is really bugging me perhaps.
I like someone you see!! known her only a week, and she is confident, witty, funny, attractive, sings beautifully and has a really nice smile and lovely eyes, pretty much what I like in a woman! She lives far away and has a really cute 3yo kid... we have chatted for a fair few hours and we like each other. She has a really infectious personality and you can't help but want to chat to her.
I am worried I might get to like this someone a little too much before realising that she doesn't feel the same way....is this why i am restless which is making me bored? I am honestly happy to just get to know her as a friend but you know that feeling you get when you start to think...is there something there, you know, the beginning of those "I really like you" feelings? and then your defence mechanism kicks in, "ooh steady on Stu, lets not be hasty, don't want you getting hurt..." bollox type of subconscious thoughts!! I guess I'll just go with what I usually do and just go with the flow and what will be will be...
anyway, back at work on Monday, woo de fuckin hoo, that's the problem with taking time off, you get used to it and don't feel like going back to work... I know they'll be some shit waiting for me to sort out. i can pretty much guarantee that.
It's raining hard!!! i can hear the rain pitter pattering against the window. I like the rain, well i mean i like the sound of rain, I hate being out in it...